25.5.06
Tired and hesitant, I approach my mind, and knock
There's times I'm not sure if it's me or not. I never liked the way I was different. The noise in my head won't stop. I think, I think, I think. The conversation in my head includes two people. I know who one of them is; he's the guy people who really know me have met. He's the guy that's considered intelligent, somewhat caring, and certainly opinionated. I'm not sure who the other guy is. I think he's the guy I put away when I found out the other kids didn't like him. He's the guy that's okay with the conversation. He's the guy who likes the challenge. He strikes out occassionaly. He HATES the other me. He hates his replacement. He mourns his loss with the world. I'm not afraid of him, he poses no threat to anyone, but I am afraid that I've forgotten him.
It's like a thought I had moments ago. I was looking in the mirror at how blonde and tan I've become. I'm one of those people who reacts very well to the sun and my new job puts me in the sun a lot. I started thinking about yesterday when I went to the movies with my friend Marla. She had noticed how much I had changed due to the sun. It's a more dramatic effect for her because she and I were involved in a "live together" relationship and now we only see each other every couple of weeks. So she not only gets to see great change in me over weeks, but she gets to forget how I've changed and remember me from before. It was interesting to me because she was with me for an hour before she noticed the way I look now. Suddenly she was almost startled by the fact she hadn't noticed. She was simply taking me as she was used to seeing me and not paying attention to the change. She seemed to be struggling to take in my new appearance because she had to erase the me that she knew. I know that this is an overdramatic interpretation of what happened, but it makes me wonder.
Which me am I talking to?
// rambled by thehairlesscat @ 5/25/2006 09:51:00 PM 
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and will do whatever is necessary to bring that about, whether it goes for or against whatever is considered 'normal'.
Half-Elves are a cross between a human and an elf. They are smaller, like their elven ancestors, but have a much shorter
lifespan. They are sometimes looked down upon as half-breeds, but this is rare. They have both the curious drive of humans
and the patience of elves.
Rangers are the defenders of nature and the elements. They are in tune with the Earth, and work to keep it safe and healthy.
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